When my kids were smaller and required much more attention, there seemed to be a scarcity of time. I remembered wishing for more than 24 hours in a day so I could accomplish all that was on my to-do list. I fully remember the whirlwind of life being a mom, a wife, and having a full time job. I thought, this lifestyle will not be for long and I looked forward to when my little ones will be more independent. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed that season of my life: the joys of having little tots running around, seeing them make their first steps, seeing their little personalities evolve, and experiencing the first time they uttered the words “I love you mommy”. I have pondered them all in my heart.
During those years, my quiet time with God was sporadic and short. I would often look forward to the future where I would have more free time and I would promised to devout it to time with God.
When my kids got a bit bigger, I thought I’d have more time on my hands. However, my old to-do lists were replaced by new ones. I found myself running around trying to accomplish things in life that I thought were important. Again, upon reflection, my supposed-to-be-more-frequent quiet times with the Lord remained elusive. I tried to have my devotions at night, but I found myself mostly depleted and without an ounce of energy left to read the Word and pray.
Then God led me to the Gospel of John. In the early times that Jesus was busy with his ministry, healing the sick, feeding five thousands, and twelve thousand, He still prioritized His time with His father. People were seeking him out but He went quietly in the mountain to pray to His Father.
I came to realize that the reason why I was always depleted physically, emotionally, and spiritually was because I was not tapping into the infinite resources that I have in Christ. I realized that this should always be my priority if I want to live an abundant life.
Again, I was reminded of the story of Mary and Martha in Luke 10:38-42. Martha was so busy attending to the needs of the occasion while her sister Mary was at the foot of Jesus reclining and listening to His teaching. Martha had asked Jesus to rebuke her sister, Mary, for not helping with the serving, and Jesus, said, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.”
There is a time for everything, and spending time with God is THE priority. I know that God has given me various responsibilities and obligations that require my time and attention – a family to look after, chores to do, work, and so many other things. But I have learned that I should not devalue my time with Jesus. In fact, I need to daily draw my strength from HIM who will enable me to do all these other things so much better.
Now I make it must to carve out time for HIM daily and I am constantly mindful of His presence in everything that I do. My kids notice the difference spending time with Jesus had made with my time with them.